Hi, Darling. I hear the wedding planning is coming along. You and Mike work together as a great team, when you remember to tell him things and not try to take on everything by yourself. I know we're really excited about the sessions with personal trainers and getting those arms in shape. Things are really starting to shape up and honestly you are starting to loose it, and not pounds. Enough of the small talk. I staged an intervention. I brought along myself (you) and all your readers and lurkers (the non-commenting readers) and we're here today to tell you to breathe.
See, I noticed recently that you're doing that thing you do, ya know - get all worked up when you can't control a situation. In trying to defy gravity you forget anxiety will come knocking down your walls if you continue to establish huge expectations. Do you really think that on June 19th everything will smoothly play out? While I can tell you are desperately trying now to do everything in your power to make sure it will, you are building up those expectations to the point where no one can avoid dashing them. The planning is all well and good. The over planning and perfection seeking is not.
If you allow yourself to rev-up 5 months out, what will your status be in June?
Listen to Kathryn, who recognizes this behavior creeping in has no place in your heart. Take a breath. Your yoga practice goes far beyond the studio practice space.
If you must be such a damn realist who tries to prepare for the worst, remember your wedding day will still happen regardless of the weather, the decor layout, or even family feuds. Listen to Joey, she told you about her ice sculpture with the wrong monogram on her wedding day. She still had fun and others had fun.
Some things are inevitable and they don't shut down the show.
If you continue to persist like this, well shut. the. front. door. I'm not having it anymore.
Listen to Shana, who said the time passes so quickly, to savor every moment. A negative attitude with a Nervous-Nelly clouds all possibility of enjoying this time.
You are a strong, beautiful woman who will shine no matter what your hair, nails, or arm flab look like on your wedding day.
You are creative, smart, and capable of accepting. Everything will look lovely because weddings are like that, and everyone will have a good time celebrating.
You are young, in love, and excited. Remember the point of all this and remember Mike's love for you.
Now, listen to yourself and not to any nonsensical fears. Don't allow nonproductive thoughts (including David Tuttera and his seemingly perfect wedding show) get to you. Dust yourself off, put on your big-girl panties, and blast the Glee Soundtrack, or whatever bad music you're currently listening to, and repeat after me:
I. Am. Enough.
Victoria Ann Elizabeth
PS: Stop faking. Start believing yourself.